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Etta Baker died September 23, 2006, at the age of 93.
September 23, 2017.
There was a shooting at my high school this Wednesday. At this point, Americans have gotten accustomed to the photos of students huddling outside a high school, terrified, comforting each other. It’s shocking to say that, but it’s true. I remember watching Columbine — an incident so searing I was still writing about it a decade later — and being unable to process it for weeks. But then came Red Lake and DeKalb and Blacksburg and Santee and oh god Sandy Hook, the worst thing I can imagine, just the worst the worst the worst. Now they are so common that they have their own running Wikipedia page. There have been five this year, including two in the last week, after one in Rockford, Washington; there were 16 last year; there were 20 in 2015; there were 36 in 2014. Think about that: Someone taking a gun into a school and shooting people has become so commonplace that there were three every month for a year and no one even noticed. Can you name a city that has had a school shooting incident since Sandy Hook? Well, there have been 87 different ones since then. You don’t even look up at the TV when news of one comes on anymore.
I am as guilty of this as anyone. But it is one thing to not notice the images of scared students outside a high school. It is quite another when it is your high school.
teacher’s name is Angela McQueen. You can see her in this picture,
standing next to MHS principal Michelle Sinclair and superintendent of
schools Larry Lilly. Ms. Sinclair taught me algebra. Mr. Lilly coached
my baseball team.
shooter, a skinny blonde freshman who has been in high school for
exactly one month and has just forever changed his own life and the life
of anyone who has ever known him, came into the cafeteria shortly
before lunch. It was an excused-absence day at the high school, so there
weren’t nearly as kids there as usual. There are rumors that the kid
was bullied, but it’s never wise to put much credence in rumors in the
first hours after a tragedy. All that matters is that the kid brought a
handgun into the cafeteria and began firing.
According to the Mattoon Journal-Gazette, the first newspaper I ever read and the first media outlet to ever publish a word I wrote, the teacher, Ms. McQueen — whom I will surely call Ms. McQueen if I ever meet her even though I’m two years older than she is — was standing about 10 feet away from the shooter. According to a witness interviewed by the paper, “McQueen grab[bed] at the shooter’s hands from behind and push[ed] them up toward the cafeteria ceiling ... bullets were fired into the ceiling as a mass of students scrambled to get to safety.” One of those stray bullets — it is odd to refer to a bullet fired as a gun as a “stray,” as if it were abandoned and forgotten as opposed to performing the exact purpose it is designed to perform — hit a fellow student. It entered his wrist and then his chest and exited through his back. It missed all vital organs, somehow. He’s going to be OK. His father told the paper from the hospital that he was praying for the shooter and the shooter’s family.
Ms. McQueen held the shooter down until the school resource officer arrived and subdued him. Police arrived shortly after. He appeared in court yesterday. His identity is being protected by police. He is 14 years old. I wonder if I know his family.
I am always wary of taking larger lessons from incidents like this. That a 14-year-old has such easy access to a gun is disturbing to me, and should be disturbing to anyone, but I’m always not exactly inclined to have that be my first takeaway after something so personal happens in a town I care about, to people I know. Those are larger questions, important questions, that need to be addressed in a macro sense, though they surely will not be. (This Tweet remains true, eternally.)
I doubt that conversation is much interest in Mattoon right now. It’s a
community still in shock. It’s a community that has been through a lot,
too much, in the last 30 years. It’s a community that just wants to
hold its kids tight, that doesn’t want to let go. You find such goodness
in the wake of events like this. People shed most of their outer junk
and remember that we’re all in this together.
I was just telling someone last week that even though I’ve been gone from Mattoon for 24 years now, it still, today, is the one place that feels like home. It’s the place I sleep more soundly than anywhere else; it’s the one place I feel like I can catch my breath. I know all its flaws. I know its limitations. I miss it daily.
As circumstance would have it, I’m actually going to be in Mattoon next week. I’m even supposed to give a speech. I don’t think I have much I can tell them, though. I think I’m just going to listen to my friends from home. They have lot more to say. I have a lot more I need to hear. I just want Mattoon to be OK. Ms. McQueen is a start. There are many more like her there. There are many more like her everywhere.
Here is a numerical breakdown of all the things I wrote this week, in order of what I believe to be their quality. (This is an attempt to have an objective look at the value of my work in a way that I suspect will be difficult to sustain.)
1. In This Gender Gap, Men Fall Short, The New York Times. I’m pretty much on an every-three-months system with the Times op-ed page these days, and I’ll still never get used to it.
2. The Chargers’ Move to LA Is Not Going Well So Far, Sports On Earth. I was in LA for this story this week. I love stories about fanbases, and transitions, and new stadiums. I sort of feel like it’s my primary beat.
3. Emma Stone Movies, Ranked, Vulture. Repeating: Ranking is always easier when the person whose films you are ranking is under 30.
4. Can the Chargers and Rams Turn Their LA Intros Around? Sports On Earth. Winning would help.
5. Will MLB Make 100-Win History? Sports On Earth. Look at me, asking all these questions.
6. Confidence Pool, Week Three, Sports On Earth. Not sure about this Arizona Cardinals prediction.
7. September Playoff Odds Report, Sports On Earth. Changing every day!
8. Dive Dive Dive, Sports On Earth. Dive Dive Dive.
As I say every week: If you are the sort to subscribe to a weekly newsletter, I would have to think it wouldn’t be too much of a hassle to subscribe to one of the three podcasts I do. You don’t even have to listen to them! Just download them. Here they are:
Grierson & Leitch, yeah, we had our “mother!” conversation. At least we got to have it out in person. Also, “Brad’s Status” and “The Hudsucker Proxy.”
The Will Leitch Experience, Alyson Footer back. Look for our short playoff predictions podcasts soon.
Waitin’ Since Last Saturday, 100th episode alert! Exciting! We previewed the big Mississippi State game tonight. (I’ll be there.)
Have a great weekend, all. I’ll be out being a tailgating dork again.